Catherine Wheels

As previously stated, I Like / Have a Man-Crush on / LOVE Crowded House & Neil Finn. In my opinion, they are the bar that sets the standard for basically all of pop-music history in the 20th Century (Besides the those hacks - The Beatles).

This, of course brings me to "Together Alone", their dark masterpiece which was their 4th album, released in October, 1993. Among such classics as "Distant Sun", "Pineapple Head", & "Private Universe", there was "Catherine Wheels". This is one of those songs that sadly didn't become a hit single. I blame society in general. What a masterpiece of a song! When you listen to it, try not to get hypnotized by the beauty of the melody (which is hard NOT to do) but follow the lyrics, and the piece takes on a whole new slant. ("Who's needs do I serve?").

Speaking of a whole new slant...

I've very recently left my job and got dumped in a relationship. But, if I can be honest? I've probably been dumped in 3 relationships because of the job I just dumped. (Somewhere out there, the ghost of Freud is either having a double latte, or a migrane). I'm starting on a new thing that may or may not be great, and that scares the bejeezus out of me. But I remain optimistic - I have to be. I've seen the other side, and I'm, well, not going to be dumping any more. (That, on retrospect sounds SO wrong in so many ways - except if you are into weird, German Porn - then you know what I'm talking about).

It's late. I should have been in bed 3 hours ago, but I can't get this song out of my head. So instead I'm staying up, drinking some very good Irish Whiskey, and boring all 3 of you who read this, while continually hoping for the best.

Listen below for the ongoing greatness of Crowded House:

She's gone,
Vanished in the night
Broke off the logic of light
He woke, tore the covers back
Found he was empty inside

(Catherine Wheels / Together Alone / Crowded House / Rel. 10/1993)

What Was I Thinking When I Let Go Of You?

Ah - Jeff Tweedy. What would I do without you?

The end of two long-term relationships happened this week; I left my job, and the long term girl finally came to her senses, and pulled the last plug on our already-on-life-support-long-distance-relationship. The writing for both had been on the wall for a long time, and I'm surprised that it took this long to disconnect the machines.

Regarding the Job? I had been waiting for a year to spring the divorce papers. I needed new horizons, new challenges, all without the constant reminder of the stress, time served / time wasted and broken promises of the years gone by. Regarding the girl - little did I know she was looking for the exact same thing. I knew both weren't going to work. I wanted them to, but I wound up delivering my usual half-assed job for each of them. I was subconsciously sabotaging both.

But - turning that frown upside down - It's better this way. It has to be.

Now, I get to branch out into the brave new world - alone, and unencumbered. Free of all fetters & restraints, and ready to make hopefully my last fresh start. No looking back. Just learn from what is seeming like a litany of mistakes. (Pretty soon, I'll be publishing Cole's Notes on the litany of mistakes - bullet points only mind you - as it would otherwise it could be mistaken as Job's owners manual). I also suppose I should have thought this strategy over a little more since buying my new BMW 2 days ago, while knowing I was pulling the plug on my job today.... but hey, no-one ever accused me of being boring! (Or smart, for that matter).

So in closing; I've got a spanky new car, an uncertain future staring me in the face, and, well, a fresh start.

Let's hope I don't fuck this next one up. I'm running out of chances.