Ah - Jeff Tweedy. What would I do without you?
The end of two long-term relationships happened this week; I left my job, and the long term girl finally came to her senses, and pulled the last plug on our already-on-life-support-long-distance-relationship. The writing for both had been on the wall for a long time, and I'm surprised that it took this long to disconnect the machines.
Regarding the Job? I had been waiting for a year to spring the divorce papers. I needed new horizons, new challenges, all without the constant reminder of the stress, time served / time wasted and broken promises of the years gone by. Regarding the girl - little did I know she was looking for the exact same thing. I knew both weren't going to work. I wanted them to, but I wound up delivering my usual half-assed job for each of them. I was subconsciously sabotaging both.
But - turning that frown upside down - It's better this way. It has to be.
Now, I get to branch out into the brave new world - alone, and unencumbered. Free of all fetters & restraints, and ready to make hopefully my last fresh start. No looking back. Just learn from what is seeming like a litany of mistakes. (Pretty soon, I'll be publishing Cole's Notes on the litany of mistakes - bullet points only mind you - as it would otherwise it could be mistaken as Job's owners manual). I also suppose I should have thought this strategy over a little more since buying my new BMW 2 days ago, while knowing I was pulling the plug on my job today.... but hey, no-one ever accused me of being boring! (Or smart, for that matter).
So in closing; I've got a spanky new car, an uncertain future staring me in the face, and, well, a fresh start.
Let's hope I don't fuck this next one up. I'm running out of chances.
The end of two long-term relationships happened this week; I left my job, and the long term girl finally came to her senses, and pulled the last plug on our already-on-life-support-long-distance-relationship. The writing for both had been on the wall for a long time, and I'm surprised that it took this long to disconnect the machines.
Regarding the Job? I had been waiting for a year to spring the divorce papers. I needed new horizons, new challenges, all without the constant reminder of the stress, time served / time wasted and broken promises of the years gone by. Regarding the girl - little did I know she was looking for the exact same thing. I knew both weren't going to work. I wanted them to, but I wound up delivering my usual half-assed job for each of them. I was subconsciously sabotaging both.
But - turning that frown upside down - It's better this way. It has to be.
Now, I get to branch out into the brave new world - alone, and unencumbered. Free of all fetters & restraints, and ready to make hopefully my last fresh start. No looking back. Just learn from what is seeming like a litany of mistakes. (Pretty soon, I'll be publishing Cole's Notes on the litany of mistakes - bullet points only mind you - as it would otherwise it could be mistaken as Job's owners manual). I also suppose I should have thought this strategy over a little more since buying my new BMW 2 days ago, while knowing I was pulling the plug on my job today.... but hey, no-one ever accused me of being boring! (Or smart, for that matter).
So in closing; I've got a spanky new car, an uncertain future staring me in the face, and, well, a fresh start.
Let's hope I don't fuck this next one up. I'm running out of chances.
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